I've been with Sebastian for a month in June & ever since I came back I've been so busy with school, this is killing me, I have no time for him, I always have a place to be at & something to do, so we're barely skyping now (we were used to skyping every day). & whenever we skype i have to stay up very late (to skype for like 10 mins only) & the next day im DEAD at school...oh well, this will end soon, i graduate on the 1st of October!

Which bring me to our next problem, i was originally gonna fly to Austria & start studying there THE THIRD OF OCTOBER! but i've been looking at other options & i would like to star college until february, cause then id have a little time with my family, i could make some money & i could have some holidays & spend some time with my friends, since i dont intend to come back to live in Guatemala (even if we ever broke up). I would be flying to Austria in December anyway (we're gonna meet in FL to go to Disney, my parents gift !, and then fly together to Austria)...but he's so pissed off at me, he doesn't understand, he says that I don't wanna be with him that's why i dont wanna leave and he's dispointed...but this is a big decision for me..and were seeing each other only 2 months after it was initially planned...& ahhhhhh i wanna stay those two months here, i wish he understood, since im gonna be there & hes gonna have me all for himself anyway

& at last, im fearing that when im actually there, living, studying, he wont want me no more, thats the way he is, he gets bored of things so easily...*cries*

dont we all wish things were easier?

Majo