I miss those days, I miss those days with her in which we were happy and didn’t have a care in the world. We would talk for hours on end about anything and everything. I miss having her giggle at everything I say. What happened since then to make everything change? Was her growing up to be an adult now while I am still only just a young adult? I don’t know what happened since those days but I know that I miss her dearly and wish to be with her this time but I can’t be with her because of the distance and pain that is in plain sight. I want to show everyone that we are together and wouldn’t care less if people knew about the distance that holds us apart. I want to take her away far from everything and keep her as my own but sadly I can’t do that because I love her too much and too great. I do not want to take away her happiness that is her family and friends yet, it hurts to know that I can’t be with her right now.

Thinking of her brings a bittersweet smile to my face as I remember both the good and bad times that we had together. Thinking of her smile brings a joy to my heart yet also saddens it because I can’t touch her beautiful lips with my own. I can only watch as she grows older and older with myself slowly treading behind her at a slower pace. She isn’t bright at times yet I smile and correct her whenever she gets something wrong. I try to make her life with me worth the wait but is it worth the wait for her now? Am I no different than other couples that turn sour in which the boyfriend is always yelling and screaming wanting to control everything? I don’t believe that I am the same as them yet my actions suggest that I am turning into one of them. Can I save myself from myself or will I slowly burn out and lose the one I love? I do not know the answer to those questions in my current state of mind.