He hasn't forgiven me for moving away - Advice needed
Hi,
So it has only been recently that my relationship has turned into a long distance one. My boyfriend and I have been together for over four years. I recently moved to Canada for a year (well only nine months) abroad with my studies. It was an opportunity that was amazing and I felt that I was better off taking it now rather than later on, after college, when we would be living together. We have never lived together because both of us went two different universities but we would of seen each other on the weekends and during school breaks we spent together.
At first when I mentioned about moving away for the year, my boyfriend was not happy and didn't want me to go, but in the end I got his blessing. Coming to Canada was something I really wanted to do. So eight months later I have moved over, and I have been here nearly two months. It hasn't gotten any easier and my boyfriend has not let me forget the fact that I 'abandoned' him. Which I haven't, I still love him and plan to love him until the day I die. We talk over messenger nearly everyday and try to skype at least once a week. But I know deep down that he is still angry with me and hasn't forgiven me for leaving. He often picks fights over small things and I try not to get angry.
However recently he had gotten angry over something I had messaged him, which had meant to be a joke, and instead of saying to me straight off he proceeded to give me short answers and not be interested in what I was talking about. Until I finally wore him down and he finally told me what was wrong. This just made me angry.
So since then I have just been thinking about how I am sick of feeling guilty for leaving and sick of apologising for it all the time. It has really affected me to the point where I can't enjoy myself without feeling guilty and I just can't seem to even get myself up out of bed in the mornings. My school work has definitely been affected by this and I find myself crying nearly everyday.
So my question is how do I bring this up with him without angering him? Has anyone else encountered this?
I feel like this relationship may not work out if he doesn't forgive me soon because I am drowning at the moment. When I need support from him all I get is anger and spitefulness. I moved yes but because I wanted to gain a new perspective in a new culture.
I have been able to settle and relax and make friends. I am alone at the moment and he isn't there to help me. I really don;t know what to do. I don't to lose him.
Please help.
So it has only been recently that my relationship has turned into a long distance one. My boyfriend and I have been together for over four years. I recently moved to Canada for a year (well only nine months) abroad with my studies. It was an opportunity that was amazing and I felt that I was better off taking it now rather than later on, after college, when we would be living together. We have never lived together because both of us went two different universities but we would of seen each other on the weekends and during school breaks we spent together.
At first when I mentioned about moving away for the year, my boyfriend was not happy and didn't want me to go, but in the end I got his blessing. Coming to Canada was something I really wanted to do. So eight months later I have moved over, and I have been here nearly two months. It hasn't gotten any easier and my boyfriend has not let me forget the fact that I 'abandoned' him. Which I haven't, I still love him and plan to love him until the day I die. We talk over messenger nearly everyday and try to skype at least once a week. But I know deep down that he is still angry with me and hasn't forgiven me for leaving. He often picks fights over small things and I try not to get angry.
However recently he had gotten angry over something I had messaged him, which had meant to be a joke, and instead of saying to me straight off he proceeded to give me short answers and not be interested in what I was talking about. Until I finally wore him down and he finally told me what was wrong. This just made me angry.
So since then I have just been thinking about how I am sick of feeling guilty for leaving and sick of apologising for it all the time. It has really affected me to the point where I can't enjoy myself without feeling guilty and I just can't seem to even get myself up out of bed in the mornings. My school work has definitely been affected by this and I find myself crying nearly everyday.
So my question is how do I bring this up with him without angering him? Has anyone else encountered this?
I feel like this relationship may not work out if he doesn't forgive me soon because I am drowning at the moment. When I need support from him all I get is anger and spitefulness. I moved yes but because I wanted to gain a new perspective in a new culture.
I have been able to settle and relax and make friends. I am alone at the moment and he isn't there to help me. I really don;t know what to do. I don't to lose him.
Please help.
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