I am born, I Cry my hearts out; my fathers checks me out and exclaims my son!!

I am in school, I top; my teacher boasts, my student!!

I am at college, Eyes roll on as I indulge in babe watching; I hook up (ya right!!); my friends mutter his girlfriend!!

I am under the effect of recession; I still hold on to my job; I bask in the glory of, My Job!!

I sleep in the night and I dream. I see a hotshot executive, in his Armani’s black, hurrying down the staircase of the porch of his villa (late to work as usual !!), turn’s back and blow’s a kiss towards his beautiful wife and kids, and he hops into the driver’s seat of his Ferrari. (Yes folks you name it and I shall have it in my dreams). I drive past a couple of lanes till I reach the super-expressway. A voice command for automatic driving and yeah!! I am at the back seat with a book. Guess what the title is?

I read a couple of pages and my head starts bulging with questions already. Do I love to the best of my abilities? Do I love just because somebody loves me in return? Or do I love just because I have some personal motives? I love my wife, because if I don’t she might leave me; I love my kids, I provide !! ; if I don’t they may not adore me; I work my heart out (ya right as though I love it or so !!); It pays me to maintain a Ferrari and a villa remember !!

Yes!! I love just because if I don’t I might risk of loosing it all. I love because I get it in return and it is thoroughly bounded by personal likes and dislikes. There is this strange sense of ownership which is a disguised slavery of “My son, my student, his girlfriend and ya my job”. In a lighter sense I am actually attached more to the air conditioner than to the cool refreshing air it provides. I am loving it all; I am expecting returns and more so I am under constant fear of loosing it too.

I read on and get introduced to a term ‘DETACHMENT’.A word meaning to remain unaffected by any situation, be it pleasure,success,pain or failure. I realize that the dependency comes with the attachment, the expectation and the fear. Honestly speaking, I seize to love truly under the weight of such a mixed bag of emotions.

Swami Satyasangandanda states “It is only after you have developed a universal attachment to everything around you that you will begin to experience inner detachment”.Infact, one who is detached loves ‘better’. Once detached, one is free to enjoy every emotions of life but ‘in control’ and not ‘controlled’. Thus with detachment comes greater feeling of love for everyone around you.

An electronic voice asks for manual engagement as I am nearing my five star office premises. I close the book, jump back and authorize my control. As I drive in, I see my boss’s porche parked already (damn!!).But for the first time I take a minute out to exclaim at the awe grandeur beauty of my five star office premises. I smile. And with that smile I wakeup from my dreamy world…