So if you guys have followed my blogs you know my sister and I's relationship isn't one at all. It hurts me every time she wants to talk its about taking something off facebook about her because she cares to damn much about what people think about her-or its to tell my parents something. It annoys me that we don't have a good relationship we barely have a relationship we are more like acquaintances. Which is sad, but we are 7 yrs old apart and she's been moving around every since she moved away from our state. I barely know her and every time she did got home which is rare I try and sit down and hang out with her, but either we will get along then the second time she visits we are back to square 0. For example the last time she visited we went to Seattle for a Spa day although I only did stuff to my hair she went all out. Anyway after I accidentally sent a harmless text to her, and we are talking like something that said Im tired of my sister and mom treating me like shit everyday. I meant to send it to B but it went to her. She called me an ungrateful bitch, told me that I should be embarssed to still be living at home and going to commuity college. And the quote that topped it off was "everyone is worried your gonna become a f-ing loser, marry an f-loser and have a f-loserish life"--yeah way to end the day huh? Oh she ended up ditching me downtown to go out with her friends and left me at a Barnes and Noble- I called my mom but she reasoned with my sister and told me I was being a brat. When I let my sister bash me and I had barely done anything! That day in Seattle was the last straw for me, everytime now that I try and look past what happened and try to send her a text and say how are you those lines she said to me about being a loser roll round and round in my head like a record. I dont know how I am ever going to forgive her, and funny thing I was the one who said sorry even though I didn't do anything. On the way home she played angry music. Did she apologize later on at all? No. Still hasn't and it has been months! Will she ever? Probably not but its the only thing keeping me from moving on with her. We have gone separate paths for so long I dont think we will ever cross paths. This may sound horrible but I wish one of my cousins was my sister. I wish I had a better relationship with L *my sister* but I dont know how. Anyone else have this issue?
PS-If one song could describe us its Battlefield-Jordin Sparks.