I thought I would like to write my first blog here with a happy story, but the life is not easy. It is not like a nightmare, just a stupid story.

I make my business trip to my SO's country in the end of this month. The city I will visit is far from his place and my schedule is too tight to visit him. I have told to him about this trip since some months ago, but he did not know whether he can take off. Last night I asked him again, and he simply said "oh I will be busy then". He does not understand how much I have made effort to arrange this trip. OK. He is very realistic and honest. He never says sweet words like "I love you" and very few replies to my text. I also know our relationship is not stable yet.

I try to think positive. A postage and phone calls must be much much cheaper as I will be closer 6,000 miles to him (!). I have decided I never complain when we restarted our LDR again. I try to have affection for him like a mother.