Four weeks until I see my SO again. I'm really excited about this time. I'm going home to surprise my dad for his 50th bday. We're going to have a surprise party and everything!

And the boy is going to meet my crazy family! uggghh... I love my family, my immediate family, but sometimes they are... difficult... I have a bad habit of talking to Seth whenever I have an issue with them and sometimes I can drag on about the negatives when there are so many positives that I forget to mention!

But we shall see.

I'm really looking forward to this! I always look forward to going home, but things have gotten really bad for me here. I seriously don't have friends. All of them have moved or drifted and I just hang out in my apt all day and only really leave to go to work. I'm getting so depressed its just not funny. If I didn't have my dog at least to keep me company, I don't know what I would do. If I hear one more person try to speak
German to me, I think I might truly go crazy.

I can't even travel anymore. One, because I don't have anyone to go with now, two, because when I leave Germany next Oct to move back to the states, I won't be making any where near the money I make here, so I'm saving all that I can. Gah, but I miss it!

I keep writing up blogs on here, and I never end up sending them. I don't know why.

Everything with the SO is good, we have some friction here and there but its a normal, healthy relationship... minus the fact I usually only get to talk to him on weekends, which makes during the week go by so slow! And usually the friction is that I miss him so damn much!