It's been months since I've posted on this site. Still with Seth, my significant other. Just over a year strong! Last time I saw him was in Feb. Now I leave in the morning to go see him again and meet his family, alllll his family. I'm going to a state I've never been before, which is fine. I go to countries I don't even know what their native language is called all the time. (Seriously, what do they speak in the Chezch Republic?) But he's coming home from SC to Indiana, which he hasn't been back to since last Oct, and he asked me to fly in to Indy to see him. Of course I said yes.

Oh and I want to point out: Seth does not want to come visit me. I live in GERMANY! Who doesn't want to go to Europe? Especially to visit their wonderful, beautiful, and intelligent girl friend? He has the money (even though for him it would be FREE since he would be taking a military hop) and he has plenty of leave saved up.

The last time he was home, he had parties every night, going out and doing all sorts of crazy shit. But I'm coming this time, and I don't really party and I don't do crazy shit. (The quote I've been told my whole life comes to mind: you're the girl guys want to marry, not date). Basically, I worried I'm going to cramp his style and he's going to resent me for it. Don't get me wrong, we love each other and we're doing good as a couple. We have plans to move in and a time frame. He even used the "M" word in a sentence! And yes! It was in reference to us!

(this next paragraph is pure whining and I'm not sure it follows a coherent thought pattern, so feel free to just skim)

I'm so stressed out. This was a horrible time to do this. I miss him so much though! But I'm separating from the military, I'm looking into schools for next spring, my car died a couple weeks ago. I had to buy a new car and I'm still battling with this German guy about selling him my old junk car. My mom came out to see me last Tuesday and we spent 9 days visiting London, England and Pisa, Italy. I got sick as a dog after visiting Stonehenge which was cold and miserable. And now I'm just starting my period and I'm only going to be with Seth a week! I gained weight since I saw him last so I don't feel good about myself at all. How are we supposed to have sex when we're in his parents house? I don't want to be running around just so we can do the dirty! His parents interrogated me on Skype! I swear it was like being on who wants to be a millionaire, except you can't get the answer wrong! (mostly because its my own life... I know what my life plans are and how I grew up, I mean, duh!) But its what you say, how you say it. ugh. And I'll be in that house for a full week, with no escape unless Seth takes me out somewhere because I don't have a car there...

(I ran out of stream, so ending rant)

Bottom line: I need some positive reinforcement, if you wouldn't mind!