Mhmm i really so miss my baby. Im not as depressed as i was the first few days, but i miss him so much. Lately been getting comments about he could possibly cheat on me. Or am I worried that we'll break up now that he's had a taste and has to wait again. And so its a bit annoying. I mean i've always worried that this relationship is unfair to him, because he has to wait. But im wayy to selfish to ever let him go. It is a bit scary now that i've given all of me to him, every single thing I have to offer is all his now, and I have no regrets, but ehh the stupid comments i sometimes gets make me worry and im trying to ignore it. It sucks when its your family saying it. They just assume things. Like my sister, shes a bit more supportive but she still doesn't trust him she says.... she feels that he's still hiding me, even though i've told her his family knows. Just because he doesn't flaunt our relationship on his profiles or because she hasn't met his family. But I keep confident because I know he loves me, weather or not he does certain things.
Wish I could see him soon. I hope i'll save enough and visit him in the summer. But I hope he comes first and maybe his family. Would make things easier for me, because before going down and staying with his family I think it would be nice to meet them first? Before I invade there home. I kinda could use some comforting from him right now. Just even though I know how he feels it feels nice hearing it when i just had to go through a verbal fight of sticking up for us.. its like my refreshing comfort. Anyways I hope he comes for me soon, within 6 months rather then a year... I so hope we get to start our lives together soon too. I want to hurry and close this distance!!!!