Sorry for so many blogs and posts. My last few have been a bit depressing huh? This one isn't like that. Well me and my mom had gotten into a argument? If that's what you want to call it, was more of a frustrating conversation if you will. We hadn't talked for 2 days, but I decided to just get it over with and call her because she wouldn't be the on to call me if I hadn't. I had an excuse too, I brought up my sisters birthday and asked then asked if she's coming with us to San Francisco. It was like we had never fought. Or maybe I just made it up to something bigger then it was? I think were both just choosing to act like nothings wrong between us, which is fine, I just hope it doesn't slowly cause rifts where me and her and up like me and my dad. But all is well, she sounded calm and like today was a good day.
And now about my Nathan.... you had to know that was coming lol I tend to always have him on my mind. But its been good. Maybe because I just miss him or because we been together in person, but he seems to be more.... committed? That's not the word, he always was but like now its locked down lol Idk how to describe, but he seems to focus on us more. Like in the past in our relationship, he had different plans, he wanted to be with me of course but he wanted to do other things, now his focus is us and starting our life together. It makes me feel good, plus he has been really attentive which is nice. I so love and appreciate that he takes time to tell me he loves me even when he is busy. He's always done things like this but I still love and appreciate it, it makes me feel special. i just feel like he's in our relationship deeper then before, lol its nice, makes me feel good about us and not like a silly girl when all i do is daydream about him, because im daydreaming about my future, not just fantasy's. Its a wonderful feeling.

And on my last note, Im still looking for work, Monday Im dropping off my applications everywhere, wish me luck!

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I don't feel like writing another blog so just going to add onto here. Its 1:30am, and im not the slightest bit tired. I don't know whats wrong with me lately, i cant seem to get sleepy. So just up.... I was feeling really good about myself, wishing my Nathan was here when i was feeling like that, i even did something... *ahem* for him... lol ill share it with him tomorrow maybe.... well see if im as confident tomorrow... anyways was all good then right after that i go eat junk food and feel ucky now... idk why i do it..... Anyways im going to be up drawing till i get sleepy, hopefully i go to sleep by 3 if im lucky.