So today been out and about.... going to write and this might be a little TMI. But ordered something, me and my Nathan, nothing horrible just something to wear to bed, and the sites supposed to send it and be discreet. Nathan says it said on the site. Well im not home, so my grandma got it for me and took it inside and apparently the website is on the packaging! Omg im freaking out about going home now. And its not in a box, she said like a envelope or something. So now... just yeah im really embarrassed and mortified... Yes im 19, 20 this year, they all know but still.... I don't like my family knowing any details of my private life. But gah really embarrassed and a bit upset.

But on a better note, today me and mom spent most of the day out. Shopped, tried on Clothes, ect. And we talked a lot about Nathan and me, we talked about me going. She really doesn't want me to go back to Scotland again after this. And then we talked about marriage! A little about her and my dad, I asked questions and details. I wanted to kind of know her budget, lol she don't remeber but yeah... lol I want mine just a little more... mhmm, lol different. Then she told me how dad doesn't like me going to live with Nathan before being engaged. I asked her is he wanting push us, and she said no. But then later in the car she asked if I think me and Nathan will get married, and I told her, I may come back home engaged after this visit. I said it in a light tone, so I don't think she took me seriously, but im glad im telling her, and she was okay, so it excites and makes me happy. That when I come back, with Nathan as my fiancee (that is if he still asks me) they will accept us. I haven't talked to dad, but i feel they will accept us. But yeah talking about weddings and me and Nathan, mhmm. But now... im just hoping his family likes me.
We went to a bible study today, and the mother in law was talking so sweetly about her daughter in law. Im not excpecting to squeeze my way in to the family right away but i hope they will come to love me. After we all get to know each other. But yes i am looking forward to my future with Nathan and becoming his wife one day.

So yeah today was full of surprises! Want to hurry and talk to Nathan, I hate the time difference sometimes!!! I may just stay up all night and wait till he comes on lol, i think i will do! Just keep checking every half hour, he probably will be on in about 3 hours. So just have to kill time till then, but gah.... lots i want to talk to him about. I want to hurry and get home too. Was a good week but I miss the quiet and want to see now if nana is upset.... praying she didnt show my aunt, or they look up the site...