So I read someones blog and it raised a doubt in my own little heart...could it be that my SO is afraid to call it off? I wonder if he is scared to say he doesnt love me anymore. Its been a month i think without any sort of news from him. Just a week ago I hear my mom talk to his aunt on the phone, my mom told me that my SO's mom knew about my trip to Mexico in a few months and that my SO had told her. I told him about a month ago or so and so im not sure now.

I feel that when you tell your parents then its official...or it makes it more real. Now I could call but because older people have old ideas, it makes my life harder. You see....its bad for a well to do girl to call the man, its the man who should be calling you or should be tying to reach you. I sent him a message a few weeks ago in the hopes of him replying and this is what I said:

Hey.
I've been a bit busy, the semester is almost done and i have tons of work and most of it is kissing up to teachers. jajaja..I need A's and B's so I need to do something about it. Anyways I feel that we need to talk, i think its better if we can find a time in which we could either talk on the phone or on Aim. It's nothing de vida o muerte and I know you have a life but I think we have to make some time for eachother.
I hope you read this and so you can reply here or you can email me at *************@yahoo.com
I hope you're okay and that your hand is doing a lot better.
I love you, your mnmz <3

Im trying to figure out if i said something wrong...I tried calling him yesterday but his mom picked up and so i hanged up and was a coward. and my emotions are all over the place because im pms-ing...and i've been told not to make decisions that involve feelings when you are like this...so im going to wait for my hormones to level out before I make the next move.

Is there any flaws in my plan?