Mhmmm i am taking a class thats about sex and culture, it is about society, gender roles, sexuality, etc. Today we talked about two kinds of radical feminism...anti-pornography and pro-sex. I have mixed views...but i realized in class today that culture has had an impact on me.

Ex: With my SO, we haven't brought up the topic of sex...and well i have mixed feelings about getting married as a virgin as to opposed to well no being a virgin when im married. I don't know what he thinks...and im scared that if I give it up he'll loose interest. His mom told me not to give it up to him, my mom said the same thing, my grandma has said the same...yet I want to sort of enjoy my youth...that doesn't mean im going to sleep with every guy i see XD and see right there i point out this thing about sleeping with every guy...

anyways as you can tell i have conflicting thoughts and todays class was fun simply because we discussed why is it wrong that an older man dates a younger one yet its glorified to see a cougar with a young man (JLO)

Also im taking a course that talks about marriage and its interesting because it has a literature, historical, philosophical and legal aspect to it. I learned that common law marriage is recognized in only 8 states and the district of Columbia. Next week we will learn about marriage and immigration laws...and thats going to be interesting because if my SO does want to get serious in a future...well we need to know our options because the only way i know that will get him back to the states is through marriage...so this is valuable info....anyways

this is me babbling on and on but all i want to say is that we live in a patriarchal society and I hope one day that ends!

Also i didnt know that the CEO of Playboy was Hugh Hefners daughter...better yet...I DIDN'T KNOW HUGH HEFNER HAD A DAUGHTER!! lmao