Well today has been again one of those hard days.

Today after taking a exam (I go to university), I was walking out of the classroom and took out my phone so I could send a text to my SO that I finished (like I always did after some kind of important test or presentation). I finished writing the first sentence when it hit me that oh wait, he is not here anymore, he is in US aka he has a different phone number. I guess you know these little things that make you finally realize that he is not here, that he is miles and miles away.

Since he was moving back to his dorm, we couldnt Skype for two days and today we finally had time to Skype. Just looking at his face and remembering the times you were next to him, hugged him, kissed him.. I almost started crying. We have been apart for 17 days and it feels like a month. I guess its not that long time, but since he is my first real relationship...

Before him I didnt really have any relationships, I just messed around and made bad choices and was just.. unlucky. Since like I said, I had been extremely unlucky and was in a pretty bad state, I didnt except anything when me and SO were starting to talk to eachother. And because of that, he has surprised me so much and made me so happy. I would have never imagined that just after knowing him for a month, I would say the L word.

Thats why it has been hard for me even though we have only been apart for 17 days. But Im gonna make it work, I must try. "You'll never know unless you try..." just like I said to myself when he asked me out for first time.