I talked to him last night. I didn't do it until we were in bed, I think it helped that I didn't have to look at him while I did it. I pretty much said exactly what I wrote in my last blog.

I'm not really sure how it went. I don't feel like anything was resolved. I feel like he didn't really listen to me and instead got defensive. I told him I've been feeling low and that when he criticizes me as he did when he got home last night (the tupperwear is greasy, if you can't clean if properly don't bother) my self esteem drops even lower. Immediately he starts defending what he was saying and saying that I didn't even let him finish what he was saying and ok ya I got upset right away and yelled at him but fuck you don't need to scold me like a child!
Then moved on to the sex part. I told him I said I didn't know what to do, as I've tried talking to him and initiating in the past and it seems to go nowhere. He said 'when did you talk to me about it?" and I had to remind him that the last time was only a little over a week ago. He goes "ya well what can I do, I am tired" Then at one point he said something along the lines of "listen to yourself, you just said you get tired too (yeah at 2 am!) and then go and say this is important to you."

I don't remember the rest but I left off with saying I just wanted to feel wanted. Then he didn't say another word and we both eventually fell asleep. This morning when his alarm went off I got up to pee and he got up quickly took his clothes out of the room so he wouldn't have to get them later. He only came in to the door way to say "i've got to go, see you after your shift. Bye" There was no coming over and kissing me and telling me He loves me.

This is why I have such a hard time talking to him, I would rather stew alone in my head then say something and him act worse then what was bothering me. I don't know if anything will change, I don't know if he say anything more about the conversation or if he'll just show me even less affection now. Humph.