I have been too much over the past two months. Trying to figure out who would be the one to decide to move.
We have to talked about it, and both of us would be willing to move to be with the other.
I've also asked my bf what he would miss about his home. His list was much longer than mine...
After that night, I keep thinking that deep down he would rather us stay in Italy.
He asked me yesterday what I would be most scared about living there, I said making friends and mostly the language barrier in daily life.
I asked him that question, and he is most concerned about our healthcare system. He also mentioned that he is more worried for me because he just wants me safe and healthy. (I haven't gotten checked out at the doctors in over three to four years)
I thought his answer was very sweet.

So yesterday I was in need of some good advice from someone with experience and who is open-minded. I messaged my cousin's wife. She has gone to different countries and has even lived in them for months at a time. She has experienced new worlds. She even moved across the country to go for what she wanted and what benefited her the most. She kind of inspires me. Thankfully to her, she did give me some great advice.

I have always dreamed about travelling, visiting other places, experiences different cultures. But I never thought it would be a great possibility for me. Sure, I would say "One Day. One day, I am going to go visit Paris, and see the great pyramids of Giza." But I always felt like it was less likely to happen. Money-wise, it's hard.

Ultimately, I have decided to move to Italy to be with the one I Love. But I am also going to find myself through this journey. I am doing this for myself too. I want to be happy. And I am so scared. But this will make me happy.
He doesn't know yet, that I have decided. I'm waiting for the right time to tell him.