See with my relationship we are both loyal and very loving to eachother so it makes it hard whenever one of us cant come over. More recently it's been him that hasn't been able to make it over and I have yet to go see him. But as you could tell from previous blogs it's been hard for me mentally. Like physically I can go through the day with a complete smile and not let anyone know what's wrong. But some days I can't be strong that doesn't come so often but every once and while-I don't know if any of you guys have experienced this but...I get an overwhelming sense that I want to start crying and it could start in class or at the mall. It's random but I usually excuse myself from my friends so they won't see me cry because I like to have a smile on my face but it's not easy when sometimes I just want to cry.
I miss my boyfriend so much. And if you read in my last blog my thoughts on whenever we should stay together and I came up with a plan. If he doesn't come in July or October when he says hes going to come. I might have to start thinking about breaking up. Or I might fly over there and smack the crap out of him-lol. I mean don't get me wrong it's stressful waiting and it sucks to hear he's not coming but at this point. July? I don't know if he's coming or not because I told him not to say a word till he buys his plane ticket and has a date he's going to back and fly over. Is that reasonable enough?
I hope so because I don't want to leave him. I need him and I want him in my life for good. Hes the one for me. <3