So the only subject running through my mind is the near but distant future. Rather I'd like it or not my SO and I's 12 month stretch is next month. And the truth is I really want to know what's going to happen in the long run. Will he come for me? Will he and I make a commitment to each other. Have him come over be a policemen and I a teacher or getting out of school/or in. We have a house and some pets. And just be with each other and have this life that we have all planned in our hearts and minds. But not in reality? I just want everything to work out but so far all signs are pointing where ever for us. I don't like being confused. Lost or helpless. I like to know what's going to happen. Yes, I don't like change but him being here would be a good change a good pace from what my life is currently standing at.