So upon snooping around in my mother's old trunk in the attic.
Not only did I find old Kappa pictures of my mom with her beautiful flowing long hair,
and her weird dates to the dance(s) pictures,
I found letters she had written to her first husband,
My dad's little brother.
After reading half of them since were a lot,
not only did I discover we were more like when she was 20,
but that she and her mom didn't get along as well as she had told me,
they were like how my mom and I are now.
Big surprise? I think not.
She traveled and wrote to him from everywhere she went.
Its so romantic,
she was a 70's, hippy talking, flower power girl.
Just like I am-kinda.
What happened to her?
This random, funny, swearing, fun woman?
Why can't she still be like she was back in the 70s?
I wish she still had it in her.
Sometimes I can see it when she has a little wine in her but still.
What made her change?
Her first husbands death?
Or was it something else?
I wish I knew so I could break through to her.
Was it having children made her grow into this stubborn, hostile shell?
I love my mom regardless but what happened to her fun side?
Will I ever ask her, probably not because she'd get mad that I went into her stuff without asking.
She wouldn't show me the trunk, I have asked many times before,
and a girls gatta do what a girls gatta do, right?
I just hope she tells me eventually...
If not I believe a question and answer with her will be in session,
because I am dying to know.
Where is that daisy flower power lady?


Ever had a mother with a past that you just found out about and then realized how much she has changed since then?


Well mine has thats for sure.




XoXo,
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