I'm tired of hunting for a new job. I've interviewed several places and they have gone well but I always seem to get notification that they aren't hiring for that position any more, or "you're great, but..." It stinks and I'm getting worried because my days at my current job are running low (I put in notice months ago because I couldn't stand it).

I'm tired of being single. I've been trying online dating...which is an interesting experience. I have gone on tons and tons of dates and there have been really promising guys but nothing has panned out yet. Last night I had a date with NOTHING to talk about for 90 minutes and while this is an anomaly, as I have had only pleasant experiences recently (even with people who just aren't right), I've realized I am tired of looking under rocks and behind bushes. I know "stop looking!" is the resounding advice, but I really want a companion. I'm lonely and that is a pathetic feeling to me, especially considering how many people I consider my friends or associates. But it is what it is.

Things are going nicely, though, over all. Nothing is completely crumbling at least. The depression is still there, but isn't crippling. Also, ladies, this is verging on TMI but if you like sex (or want to) and intercourse is honestly the most painful thing that's ever occurred, when you have the funds to do so, see a doctor. I'm seeing a PT now and while there is a long path ahead of me, I'm so glad I finally got the nerve.

Otherwise, I'm doing my best to organize my life. We'll see how that all goes. If I can get the time I want to join a cooking class or a dance class or who the hell knows, something. I can't bear being home alone all the time (aka at all, because I've been busy as lately haha).

I don't have many photos on my laptop but here are a couple for now:
My two kittens, getting so big - Rafi and Red/Kenny.
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My newest mare, Della. She needs groceries badly...and is expecting a surprise foal this summer (but surprises are what we live for, right? at least we know who daddy is...) She is still a young one yet, just learning the ropes.
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How are you ladies all doing?