My ex(husband) and I had a real estate viewing of the flat today. We met up with the broker, and it has been two months since I saw my ex last. I cleaned and tidied for a few days. The idea is to get a fair price so that my brother, who lives with me, can buy my ex's part of the flat, since I cant afford to take on the loan by myself. That way we dont really have to settle the estate, and my ex can get a small flat of his own. And my brother can become a home owner. I really like living with my brother (for the most part), and he takes a much bigger interest in furnishing and fixing up the flat than my ex ever did.

It was surprisingly pleasant. My ex has dotted a horrible beard (he knows I am not a fan, but hey, he is single so he does as he pleases), but apart from the fashion fallout, it was nice having him here. He is not so angry anymore. I am not as confused and sad. He talked in a normal fashion about our jobs (he just started what he said is probably not his dream job, but at least it is a proper job, and I am waiting to hear from the people I interviewed for as they made their decition yesterday).

My ex surprised me by saying he want to buy something nearby, close enough to use the shopping mall. This place is not close to his work, so that really surprised me.

I dont know what will come of the future. Maybe he will find someone new. Maybe we will get back together, but not live together. Maybe he will just be alone.

I am just happy we are settling the estate nicely (if the bank cooperates) and are not throwing things at each other. And I know this whole thing with the separation makes SO uneasy, but getting the formal divorce out of the way is essential if I am going to get to marry him.