It's not the same with her gone! They even closed the Denny's I went to to drown my sorrows in bacon after we dropped her off. (HOW DARE THEY THAT WAS MY FAVORITE DENNY'S! But at least I still have the chipotle I went to after...I know I know! I was sad and hungry!)
I miss waking up and having her there! My bed is too empty so I put stuff on that side cause I can't stand it.
I miss her always finding a thing to watch when we wanted to watch something and I couldn't think of what to put on
I miss playing games together
I miss having someone to go out and hit the town with
I miss planning out both our outfits because I like doing that
I miss buying her frivolous cute things at the mall just because I liked it and wanted a reason to buy it (She liked them all too)
I miss someone drinking our milk before it expired! It's always expired ><
I miss someone helping with the dishes. My parents are always "tired" and they're so bad I get overwhelmed, and my sister is pregnant and has better things to do right now.
I miss just sitting with her. It's so hard anymore! I'm always bored because my family is very busy and I'm...not. It's her last semester of school and she's busy, and whenever she's available for me is when my family is home! So I end up kinda half blowing off both parties, and I spend like 70% of the day bored out of my mind! I even hate surfing the internet now! Everyone complains so much (I KNOW I'M BEING A HYPOCRITE) and it's just so hard to enjoy things.
I dunno, I'd be OK if I had a phone or something so I wasn't trapped in this room all day just in case she Skypes me.
Everytime my SO leaves I begin to think of all these things we do together and I miss him so much.
The worst is just going to sleep and waking up without them. Bwaaah.
But it will pass, and you'll meet again. Keep your time busy with stuff you like doing and allow yourself to be sad when you feel you cant simply do it anymore.
The other thing making it harder is my birthday is soon and I wish she could be here for that.
Thanks for the support though! It's nice knowing people understand and don't think I'm being whiny.