Valentine's Day is coming up!
I don't know what I want to get her yet! So many things have such crazy shipping fees to Canada (OK I'm cheap and 12 bucks is too damn much!) Last year I got her a Minecraft Diamond necklace and she proudly wore it every day until it broke (It held up against a LOT too!) and she got me a video game (Can you tell which of us has more money yet? Heh...)
I kinda wanna send her something instead of buy it online, but I STILL haven't sent her Christmas presents either! My family is complete trash at mailing things, and my money's in the bank and I can't take it out right now (Reasons) so I dunno how to pay for shipping.

MY BIRTHDAY IS ALSO COMING UP! I'm gonna be 24! (I know I don't type like it, communicating's hard enough for me, I'm better at talking than typing now, used to be the other way) I don't want anything in particular. I have a bunch of stuff on a pinterest wishlist board, and I actually hope she just combines it with my Vday gift cause whatever I have enough stuff and she's not super rich either. All I got her for her birthday though was a card, some secondhand bracelets, a few pictures, and I made a video (And yes, I did send everything but the video through the mail, it got there late because my family doesn't even keep stamps around apparently!)

OK now that all the being silly about gifts has been posted, just some life stuff (I'm too rambly)

I need a phone or something! Nobody will help me buy one (Everyone that has offered lives in Canada and they have different companies and it just wouldn't work). I do not want to sit in my room anymore. We also had to postpone the next visit because my sister is having a baby and I would like to be here for that. I might also stick around a bit because mom and dad work full time and don't wanna be stuck babysitting while she's at work (The dad lives in another state. If you wanna know how well a two LDR family works, it doesn't, our broadband can't handle it) and I'm unemployed and have nothing better to do and took child development classes so I'll watch the kid for a while cause it's an easy arrangement.

I want to ask if she can come back down during that time, because all our family will be here INCLUDING my Grammy who barely ever flies down, and it's a big important family event and I want her here for it and she wants to be here too. It's hard to ask though because with our family, the dad's family (They'd get a hotel I know them) AND Tam it'd be crowded, and we also wanna save our money and see if it can be done. She wants to have a job by then so her visit would be shorter than last time (UNFORTUNATELY) but that might be a good thing in the long run because crazy busy-ness.

We haven't even asked about her coming down yet because I haven't gotten my birthday money (I have my Christmas money though) and we don't know what we'll have saved up to bring her down here and not eat all the food mom and dad bought. We wanna know if it's even feasible before asking, and I hate even asking, but this is tearing us up and she just wants to be involved.

I'd just really like for all this chaos to sort itself out a little, that'd be very nice.