I had already written out a blog post, but then my firefox disappeared and I had to write it again. Shiite.
A little back story:
So my boyfriend is doing a work experience at the Baltic Sea in July, and since it's in a city I've lived in for a year a few years back and I generally just love the sea I'm visiting him there for a week.
He's staying with a friend of his mum's and I'm supposed to join him there.
I wasn't too happy about this to begin with, because while the woman is an absolute sweetheart and I know she actually likes having us around, she doesn't have doors in her place.
I agreed anyway, but tonight my boyfriend told me that there will be another girl staying there, too. Apparently she's family and having a summer job there. So she couldn't refuse her, even though we were first.
I suggested we get a room somewhere else. The universities there rent out their residence hall during summers and it's really cheap (20€/night for a double room). But my boyfriend wouldn't have it because he says he can't afford it and it would upset his mum's friend.
We've also booked our stay in Prague in August. We're going with three friends of his, which I knew before. One of them chose the apartment today. It does have two bedrooms, but in such a way that they're not really separate. I mean, I guess they somehow are, but you have to go through room 1 to get to room 2 and room 2 leads to the kitchen and bathroom. You get the idea.
Now, I feel that seeing as we get to spend so little time together, that when we have time together it should be as good and as much 'us-time' as possible. I don't understand at all, how this doesn't seem to bother my boyfriend in the least. It's not only about -you know- (although it is about that as well, of course), but about one-on-one time with each other.
I don't know if he's maybe just accepting these things as something he can't change anyway. And I guess I shouldn't be upset about it and it's probably really silly, but... I'm not happy at all.
Especially since he's going on a trip with his friends before we go to Prague. They're in the process of making reservations and stuff now and I've been helping to find them accommodation and there were several instances where they could have taken a dorm-style room, but he chose to pay more for a twin room. He's willing to pay more so he has a room alone with his friend but not to have a private room with his girlfriend... what the hell is wrong with this man?!
I guess I want to bring it up somehow, but I don't know how. I don't want to be the crazy "make-your-life-about-me"-girlfriend, but this is upsetting me.