So, Jason an I met 4th of July weekend this summer. For the most part, you could say that everything ended up the way it should be, but I will tell you all exactly what we both had to go through in order to be where we are today.
My friend was planning a 4th of July weekend get together at her cottage in Seneca Lake, NY. The plan was that she was going to invite her college buddies from Buffalo down to her cottage for the weekend so everyone could have a good time because one person in particular had graduated that June and was moving to MSU for grad school the following week after the 4th of July.
My friend thought it would be a good idea to hook me up with one of those friends, his name was Chase. She gave him my number and made me talk to him to see if we'd hit it off. Unfortunately she gave him false motivation and told him that I liked him..so on and so forth. He obviously got the impression that I was into him so he was very excited to meet me that weekend.
When we met up at her cottage the 2 boys, Jason and Chase, were already there. She introduced me to both of them for the first time and for an instant when I shook Jason's hand I felt a little jolt in my stomach. It was a very weird feeling but I let it go because I wasn't sure why I felt that way about someone I never met before. We all went to this big winery/pub restaurant that night because there was a band playing and we figured it'd be a lot of fun. Chase tried very hard to keep my attention and to talk to me but for some reason all I could think about was Jason and that weird feeling I had everytime I would look at him. We all ended up dancing for hours that night and every time I would get close to Jason I could feel butterflies. When we got back to the cottage that night Jason went up to the balcony and I was on the lower porch with a few other people just chatting. When I realized that Jason wasn't around I said I was going to go look for him. I figured I hadn't really been able to talk to him at all so why not go and properly introduce myself. I found him on the balcony alone and as I walked out I closed the door behind me. He was listening to music on his iphone so I went up to him and said hello and said "why are you up here all alone?" He told me he was just thinking about things so I figured I would ask if he needed to talk about anything.. To my surprise he decided to tell me what was going on and he opened up to me about so much stuff. He told me about how he hasn't gotten over his ex and about how he still feels about it. He also brought up his current girlfriend (which I knew about through my friend). Not much was said about this girl, so I figured out that he was only dating her to try and get over his ex. We spent about an hour or so up on that balcony just talking and talking...no pressure whatsoever. It was pretty incredible how both of us just opened up like that to one another. When I got up to go open the door after about 2 hours I found out that the door had locked behind me. I was so scared because it was 3am and everyone else was sleeping except for us and we were locked outside. We passed the time waiting for someone to come open the door by laying on the balcony looking at the stars. He wrapped his arm around me because I got cold and he stayed so close to me that I was so scared he could hear my heart beat. Everytime he touched me I felt so weak, like all the strength in me was gone. I had never felt that way before. I didn't want to act on it though because I knew he wasn't single so I kept my feelings to myself.
Once someone came to finally let us in we found that all the beds were taken so Jason and I decided to share the couch. Chase began to text Jason nasty things because he felt like Jason betrayed him by flirting with me. Chase didn't even know that nothing had happened up on the balcony so I told Jason to go talk to Chase. Jason refused to and said Chase was being rediculous so I decided that I would go tell him the truth. As I got up off the couch to go talk to Chase, Jason an I stopped cold face to face with one another and there was a long pause where we just stared into eachother's eyes. Somehow I got the power to look away after about 10 seconds and I darted up the stairs to talk to Chase....
To make this super long story short.....
Something happened that night after I went back downstairs to sleep on the couch with Jason... We tried to make it not obvious to everyone that there was something going on mainly because we had yet to tell eachother that there was something going on. And i especially didn't want to get into a situation with a guy that has a gf. As hard as we tried to keep a distance from eachother that next day, it was seemingly impossible. It was clear that we were just drawn to eachother.
The next night is when things really took off. We were at a bar and feeling kinda tipsy when he looked at me and said he wanted to talk to me about something. I suggested we go outside so we did. He looked at me and said "I like you". I was so overwhelmed. I just looked at him and said "I like you too". Then I asked him what we were going to do about this because I knew he was leaving and he had a gf. He told me we'd figure it out so I decided why pass up what could be something amazing...
After he left that weekend and moved to MSU for grad school we kept in touch everyday...growing closer and closer. We just couldn't stop from thinking about one another. It got to the point where I knew I was in danger of falling in love with him and I didn't know what to do because he hadn't broken up with his gf and I wasn't sure of where this was all going.
About 2 weeks into talking I decided that enough was enough and I couldn't handle talking to him and falling for him if I knew it wasn't going to go anywhere serious. As pathetic as it sounds, the next 24 hours after that were the most painful. I couldn't handle not talking to him. Even though he told me that I was probably right and that he didn't feel like breaking off one LDR to get back into one, I felt like me and him had something there that needed to have a chance. I texted him after 48 hours and he immediately texted me back. We decided to Skype and on Skype I told him how I was feeling. He told me he felt that same way and that he was falling in love with me. There was only one to do after that and of course he broke up with his gf the next day and since then me and him have been talking everynight. We decided to take things slow because of the situation of course, and I must say that it is the best decision we ever made. There was no pressure to make anything immediately exclusive, and we grew even closer because of that.
Now we are officially a couple and I love him with all my heart. I could not see myself loving anybody but Jason. He is unlike any other man I have ever met. When I have moments where I think he is acting like a typical man he always surprises me by doing something out of the ordinary and I just fall more and more in love with him everyday.
My friend was planning a 4th of July weekend get together at her cottage in Seneca Lake, NY. The plan was that she was going to invite her college buddies from Buffalo down to her cottage for the weekend so everyone could have a good time because one person in particular had graduated that June and was moving to MSU for grad school the following week after the 4th of July.
My friend thought it would be a good idea to hook me up with one of those friends, his name was Chase. She gave him my number and made me talk to him to see if we'd hit it off. Unfortunately she gave him false motivation and told him that I liked him..so on and so forth. He obviously got the impression that I was into him so he was very excited to meet me that weekend.
When we met up at her cottage the 2 boys, Jason and Chase, were already there. She introduced me to both of them for the first time and for an instant when I shook Jason's hand I felt a little jolt in my stomach. It was a very weird feeling but I let it go because I wasn't sure why I felt that way about someone I never met before. We all went to this big winery/pub restaurant that night because there was a band playing and we figured it'd be a lot of fun. Chase tried very hard to keep my attention and to talk to me but for some reason all I could think about was Jason and that weird feeling I had everytime I would look at him. We all ended up dancing for hours that night and every time I would get close to Jason I could feel butterflies. When we got back to the cottage that night Jason went up to the balcony and I was on the lower porch with a few other people just chatting. When I realized that Jason wasn't around I said I was going to go look for him. I figured I hadn't really been able to talk to him at all so why not go and properly introduce myself. I found him on the balcony alone and as I walked out I closed the door behind me. He was listening to music on his iphone so I went up to him and said hello and said "why are you up here all alone?" He told me he was just thinking about things so I figured I would ask if he needed to talk about anything.. To my surprise he decided to tell me what was going on and he opened up to me about so much stuff. He told me about how he hasn't gotten over his ex and about how he still feels about it. He also brought up his current girlfriend (which I knew about through my friend). Not much was said about this girl, so I figured out that he was only dating her to try and get over his ex. We spent about an hour or so up on that balcony just talking and talking...no pressure whatsoever. It was pretty incredible how both of us just opened up like that to one another. When I got up to go open the door after about 2 hours I found out that the door had locked behind me. I was so scared because it was 3am and everyone else was sleeping except for us and we were locked outside. We passed the time waiting for someone to come open the door by laying on the balcony looking at the stars. He wrapped his arm around me because I got cold and he stayed so close to me that I was so scared he could hear my heart beat. Everytime he touched me I felt so weak, like all the strength in me was gone. I had never felt that way before. I didn't want to act on it though because I knew he wasn't single so I kept my feelings to myself.
Once someone came to finally let us in we found that all the beds were taken so Jason and I decided to share the couch. Chase began to text Jason nasty things because he felt like Jason betrayed him by flirting with me. Chase didn't even know that nothing had happened up on the balcony so I told Jason to go talk to Chase. Jason refused to and said Chase was being rediculous so I decided that I would go tell him the truth. As I got up off the couch to go talk to Chase, Jason an I stopped cold face to face with one another and there was a long pause where we just stared into eachother's eyes. Somehow I got the power to look away after about 10 seconds and I darted up the stairs to talk to Chase....
To make this super long story short.....
Something happened that night after I went back downstairs to sleep on the couch with Jason... We tried to make it not obvious to everyone that there was something going on mainly because we had yet to tell eachother that there was something going on. And i especially didn't want to get into a situation with a guy that has a gf. As hard as we tried to keep a distance from eachother that next day, it was seemingly impossible. It was clear that we were just drawn to eachother.
The next night is when things really took off. We were at a bar and feeling kinda tipsy when he looked at me and said he wanted to talk to me about something. I suggested we go outside so we did. He looked at me and said "I like you". I was so overwhelmed. I just looked at him and said "I like you too". Then I asked him what we were going to do about this because I knew he was leaving and he had a gf. He told me we'd figure it out so I decided why pass up what could be something amazing...
After he left that weekend and moved to MSU for grad school we kept in touch everyday...growing closer and closer. We just couldn't stop from thinking about one another. It got to the point where I knew I was in danger of falling in love with him and I didn't know what to do because he hadn't broken up with his gf and I wasn't sure of where this was all going.
About 2 weeks into talking I decided that enough was enough and I couldn't handle talking to him and falling for him if I knew it wasn't going to go anywhere serious. As pathetic as it sounds, the next 24 hours after that were the most painful. I couldn't handle not talking to him. Even though he told me that I was probably right and that he didn't feel like breaking off one LDR to get back into one, I felt like me and him had something there that needed to have a chance. I texted him after 48 hours and he immediately texted me back. We decided to Skype and on Skype I told him how I was feeling. He told me he felt that same way and that he was falling in love with me. There was only one to do after that and of course he broke up with his gf the next day and since then me and him have been talking everynight. We decided to take things slow because of the situation of course, and I must say that it is the best decision we ever made. There was no pressure to make anything immediately exclusive, and we grew even closer because of that.
Now we are officially a couple and I love him with all my heart. I could not see myself loving anybody but Jason. He is unlike any other man I have ever met. When I have moments where I think he is acting like a typical man he always surprises me by doing something out of the ordinary and I just fall more and more in love with him everyday.
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