While responding to a post on the forums, I have figured out one reason why the distance has been so hard for me. I keep looking for the destination! I keep looking for us to finally couple up but why is that so important? I know he's not seeing anyone else and that he cares a heck of a lot about me. He's even told me he relies on me, so I know he must see a permanent place in his life for me, right?

So why am I trying to rush things, instead of just going with the flow and enjoying the journey? I could blame it on a biological clock ticking thing, but (if guys go through anything similar) he must be feeling it worse than I am. He's 13 years older than I am, and neither of us have children.

I think it is because every other relationship I had went from meeting to sleeping/living together within literally days. I am so not used to someone taking the time to really get to know me. Or respecting me enough to want a real relationship before the physical one starts....

I think I should add learning to see and enjoy the journey instead of the destination to my list of things to accomplish this year!! I think doing that will make it so much easier to talk to him about the things I feel and want and need...and make it not so nerve wracking when I want to send something sappy and loving to him.

What about you guys? Do you have trouble not looking for the destination of your relationship? Is it making you miss some of the better moments of your journey through life with you SO? Is it keeping you from living in- and enjoying-the moment? I think it is doing all of this to me, and I am vowing to do my best to stop living in the future and live for the here and now.