I need to get this out somewhere, and well i can't make any of this public, but i figured a blog post restricted to my few friends here won't be harmful
This post is about the PLAN... yes in full caps; the PLAN that sent my SO away and got us LD, the PLAN for a better life...
So the PLAN in question always stipulated that my SO reunites with his family and earns an additional degree while working... once his studies are over and his work experience better, and lets face it, he has put a little money aside, we'd "close the distance", and figure out a system that works; either through spending 6 months in each country with a job that joins both, or something else... so closing the distance has always been about him coming back after his studies are up... that puts our time-line at early 2015... my own major turning points in life do not affect this plan, since my deadlines end before his...
this plan has always made sense, and still does. i chose a profession that leads to a career. and i really want that career.. and i really want my career to be in Lebanon first and foremost...
in about 6 months i will graduate. i already have a very interesting job, and a future in the small firm I'm in. logic dictates that between my graduation and the time we live together, i gain more experience here and secure my/our future...
However, i have been having a hard time lately being apart, and even though i know we are doing the right thing for the both of us, i can't help but feel like we're putting our lives on hold..
on another note, seeing the general crisis in the field of architecture lately, and the crisis that is sure to come in Lebanon for there are too many architects around; I've been thinking about continuing my studies and getting a degree in landscaping
that would be a big plus for the firm I'm working in, and a big asset to me, not to begin on how fun it is and how well it marries with architecture... so I've been fantasizing about this, and i honestly can't afford it... whether its here in Lebanon or anywhere else in the world.. so I'd have to find a scholarship/grant that would take care of all my expenses.. these are a lot more available for studying abroad, so that means I'll start to look at grants/ scholarships and universities abroad, and well, if i can jump in and be with my SO I'm not going to pass up this opportunity!! 
so that brings me back to today... a wonderful phone call with my SO, where i share my insecurities and worries, and in which he agrees that this plans sounds good
he said all the things i needed to hear, and offers all the support he can give me...*where is that smiley with the eyes in the shape of hearts when you need it??!!*we might be close by fall 2012
shhh secret!i'm so excited/ happy/relieved that i can't stay in place!!
