I have a one way ticket for the US in 58 days. My application to Uni is sent. Waiting now for the processing, acceptance, official paperwork, then for that paperwork to make it's way back to me, and finally to apply for the visa. It's going to be really tight, time wise, and it's making me very nervous.
The quarter starts on April first, so it leaves me a margin to change flights, but i've been looking to get an idea, and for the two weeks after my planned departure there are no more seats in economy or premium economy available :s
I know in my head i shouldn't stress for things i can't control, but we've been working for this so hard that i can't help worrying... Trying my best to stay calm and not get too anxious...
Budget wise i'm behind with my savings. See i've wanted to save enough to be to cover the Uni tuition, so far looks like i'll have about 80% of the tuition, but that is not all i'll have to pay for... Still have to pay for insurance, textbooks and everything i won't be comfortable spending "our" money on... And then there's my sister's wedding halfway through the program which we'll be spending a fortune on flights and car rental for;transatlantic 18h flights for 7 days only because we both have Uni and can't miss more than a week; yay!
My SO has said all the right things to make me stay sane on the budget front and it means so much to have his support!
Which brings me to my SO... I miss him so so so much! It's been a very long few months where we've had significantly less regular communication. We're both very excited though at the prospect of march and it just feels so right!
These last 3 years have been very tough on us but also , to my surprise, very useful: we've learned a lot more about ourselves and eachother, we've become more patient and apreciate eachother a lot more. I've become a lot more independant too, yay!
Leaving everyone here is going to be so hard though! I live with my whole family and grandmom so it will be a huge change to find myself with just my SO. Will miss everyone a whole lot, especially that visits will be very hard (apart from my sister's wedding in July). I'm afraid i'll be lonely and i don't want to pressure my SO with being my only source of support and socialisation so i'll have to put in a lot of effort to go out and meet people.
Theres a thing at the back of my mind, and input would be welcome. My SO and i will be moving in together for the first time. We've spent quite a large amount of time together being CD for 4 years and visited for months LD, but it's not the same. I'm a little nervous which i guess is normal, but it's gotten me thinking.. I'd like us to take a premarital course. Won't be able to see what he thinks about it before i get there, but theres no rush. Do you think it's weird?
Think i should stop here for today. Hope you're having a good day/ evening
It's not weird to think about the transition you'll go through when you live together. It definitely takes an adjustment!! It's not all sunshine and rainbows all the time, but it's definitely worth the effort.
I don't know if a course is necessary, but it could be interesting! I'd recommend giving yourselves a few months first. If you start to notice somethings that you would like to work on together with someone else's help, then a course might be a good idea.
It's a big change but it's mostly awesome and positive.
I'll be a source of support too but I'm a bit further!
You make good points. I guess I'm a little nervous because a few years back we hit a really rough patch and he wanted us to get help. At the time I didn't even see it as bad as it was and now wish I'd had agreed. It would have saved us both months of pain.. I've promised myself I'd be more receptive and attentive and that's how it will be. We're both very excited, aware we'll also have ugly bits