So I have been really weird these days and I have no clue why.I hope the explanation lies in LDR because my mood really tends to swing as fast as rabbits perform sexual intercourse under speeds.I mean, I tend to get upset and all down in no time, and annoyed and then tensed and then when my SO actually goes to sleep, I don't want him to go but while he stays I just keep silent most time.It really annoys me because well, that's not me and I'd like to be adequate.However,we still chat for long time every day which is relieving.Guess I am also nervous because of last LDR experience which turned out extremely bad in the end,so now whenever slightest thing goes not as good I am starting to panic and compare and think whether it's a sign of something horrible to happen.Shoot me.
On a positive note,a gift for my SO arrived in parcel today and I love it ^^ It's a Keltic cross,right from Dublin and damn these people make some fine jewelry pieces.As well Body Shop is now my favourite store forever because it keeps having all these promos and discounts and give-aways.I am getting worried about my salary and its future flow.Well,that can be called investment in self,right?
I actually think of getting another ink on my wrist as a reminder why am I doing this and what I will be going through in future (aka FFL).Hope it will kinda give me strength not to give up and do what I am supposed to instead of whining and feeling miserable.