....But I'm not so I guess my SO will live... for now.
I don't know whom to blame for this. Here's the deal. We had a fight. Well He just stared at the computer screen while I had my little hissy fit. My issue is that we don't talk enough. His issue is that he's busy. Common issue is that we live 5,000 miles away and there's a 6 hr time diff. It used to be so sweet. I'd wake up early and he'd be getting of work so the first thing I hear in the morning was his voice. Right before I go to bed, he's just getting up so his voice would be the last thing I heard before going to bed. How awesome is that?
Now it's all gone. No sweetness, hardly anything. I've been nagging and nagging about this almost constantly. We talked on News Year's Eve for almost 4 hours and it was great. Then I didn't hear from him for two days. Not on Fb not on skype. Monday we talked until we had the huge fight. Pretty much the biggest fight that we've had since we got together.
Look, I know my faults. I know I'm not nearly patient enough for this kinda thing, but I love him too much to let him go. I know he loves me too, I just don't know how to get through to him that I need to hear his voice because that's the closest thing I have to touching him. I am a VERY touchy-feely type of person. I love hugs and kisses and those little touches and hand holding and massages and ... well, you know.
At this point in my life I just feel like I'm failing everything. Me and my twin sister aren't talking. I'm having issues at work. I have practically no friends here anymore who I can just go over and hang out with, who could actually listen to me without us being interrupted by baby or husband. I'm in a very hard place right now. All I want to do is talk to him, but he has a life and I can't fault him for that. At the same time though, shouldn't he want to talk to me? Shouldn't I be a priority? Every time I bring it up, maybe I should use a softer tone, but he thinks I'm looking for a fight. And then its sounds like he's placating me by scheduling me into his day. All I want is for him to want me like I want him, for him to crave my voice, my face, my time. Is that too much?
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I understand your frustration, and I too am a touchy feely person. I find the cam hard sometimes cause I can see him but not touch him, the one thing I want to do so badly. Also the friend thing, I hear that as well. Although my thing is no one in my circle seems to understand, they all have their SO and me well .... you know ....
Its good you tell him how you feel, sometimes they are oblivious too it and don't think the way we do
Good Luck, I'm always around to bend an ear
Everything feels much better today. I got invited to a party with a bunch of coworkers and hopefully that won't be too much drama. And I even patched things up with my sister! Well, I think I did anyway. Thanks again for reading!