and now its getting worst and worst! i havent heard anything from him since yesterday, no email, no text msgs, no calls, nothing! i started to be worried, but i just kept it in my mind that his big enough and i know his safe and doing good...
now... today, was really a hard day for me i think... i woke up early this morning to see if he atleast send a text and again... nothing! i check my emails...nothing! but when i open my facebook and check his profile... oh yes, he did sign in in just a few minutes ago and he didnt even have a single thought to atleast send me even just a short messege to say 'HEY I'M ALIVE!"
I felt so upset, but i tried to handle my temper. I expected that he will call me in the middle of my day today and he did not call me.
I cant help it, i took my celfone and dial his number (again and again) and its just the answering machine who answered after 5 rings, I did call him for almost 10 times and he didnt pick up the phone. i was started to be worried and i cant concentrate, there are too many questions inside in my mind, and i almost cried because i am angry but at the same time i am worried. I called him again at exactly 2:30 early morning on his time, thinking maybe he just fell asleep and i dont care if i wake him up, but then he didnt answer it.
finally at 3am on his time he called and he is drunk! he denied to the highest level that he is not drunk and he just in the house only...
I cant even understand what does he said because he is drunk and now he is trying to deny it.
I cant help my self but to cry over the phone and told him what I really feel, and why he is ignoring my calls and emails...
finally he said that he was with his friends at the bar, and he didnt notice that his phone was ringing...
Guyss.. I almost give up to this situation, i feel like i am the one who is working on this LDR, yes he is my husband, but why he is acting like this to me... he is not helping me to overcome this hard situation. I am almost tired, 7months of waiting... I need an incredible strength from him, but i think he is tired, from where I shoud get that strength...
