I don't know what I am. I am angry, sad, and just numb.

I don't care. Well I do. But no really I don't.

I waited for him to get home from fishing...and we are talking all along. And he gets quiet...and I am jabbering away...and well nothing. I say do you want me to let you go...and he says...no why? I said you sound tired...and he says well I am. I said I can let you go...and he says...no!...So I keep talking and he is just acting funny...so I said...are you mad at me about something? Dan? Dan? Dan?

Nothing.

So I hung up.


I call back. It's busy.

So...either he fell asleep on me...or he took his phone off the hook.

I could care less right now.

I am fuming just because oh I don't know...

It's our only night together and he took off fishing...and I really don't care about that...but then....he gets home at 11:30 and is wide awake...talking...then nothing...he fell asleep that quick? Nope don't buy it.

I don't think I have ever been this mad at him. This upset..and in a "I really don't give a shit now attitude."

Life goes on.