He calls on lunch break at 10 pm...I was all cozy in bed...and decided I would get the brilliant idea at 9 pm to clean my pre-teens room...quickly I said..a little tidy up...well it was a little more than tidying up....I had forgotten to take my cell in with me...and well had her grab the phone...at 10..."Mom...you have a missed call..."...I sat on the floor and tears silently fell down my cheeks. She said.."mommy I am sorry"...I quickly explained..it's not YOUR fault...

He called at 9:45 tonight...left a beautiful voice mail.

I miss him. My heart aches for him.

Ah yes. I am fully madly deeply in love.

Pinches self...is this me? I never let anyone in. Wow.