I am bummed.

Since 4 pm the service has sucked.

Finally he calls at 10:30 and gets through and we talk a few and bam...lost call. Few minutes later...we got to talk and dropped call again. He knows I am on facebook...so I message him... but he doesn't come online...then I grab my daughters cell (which has few minutes)...and I call...and he doesn't answer. UGH! I leave a message. I assume he went to bed. Whatever.

It goes to show...he is secure in this relationship..and I am not.

I wonder if I ever will be. My ex and I have truly gotten past a lot of the anger and hurt and can communicate now...he told me last night to just do one thing in my relationship with Dan....I cringed as I said..."what?" he said..."don't doubt him every day..it will make him crazy"....I know I always doubted him...for 17 years...

Sucks.

Distance sucks. I am NOT a fan of it right now. I had such a good day up till 4...and then all this shit.

We barely get to talk all week till Thursday...and look what happens....no cell service.

Vent over. UGH