I want to run away.

Karringtyn started a blog post I want to run away.
October 14, 2010, 09:03 PM
I want to run away.

I am miserable mean and moody.

I am so sad I just want to sleep.

I want to dig a hole climb in and just go away.

Tell noone.

I JUST WANT MY LIFE TO START.

I need to be real with me. His house isnt going to sell.

I am going to lose the man I love more than anything because it won't sell.

I am depressed as hell and want to sleep.

I was on top of the world with him..and now...I can't do this being away from him.

IT SUCKS.

With him I am happy....heck I was fine before we saw each other....and now that I had another glimpse of life and what it can be like....I am soooo sad.

I cried much of today.

I feel like I am losing it.

Big trigger for me is to just run away when the going gets tough.

I don't feel strong right now at all.

DId I mention I have cried and cried.

THis isn't where I want to be.

I HATE THIS.
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  machstx commented
  
  October 14, 2010, 10:35 PM
  
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  i completely understand. my situation seems hopeless sometimes.
  
  try not to be down about his house. you dont what is in store for the two of you. my life has changed in ways i NEVER thought they ever could. try to look at it with an open mind about what the future has in store.
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  blankita719 commented
  
  October 15, 2010, 07:58 AM
  
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  *hugs* As trite as it sounds, things really do work out the way they are supposed to...firm believer in that now. We're all crossing our fingers and waiting for that day when you get to jump on here and announce that the house is sold - because it will!
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  Zephii commented
  
  October 15, 2010, 10:49 AM
  
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  *Wraps you up in hugs* Come on mate, we're all here for you, we know you can do this. It will sell, and if it doesn't you will find a plan B. There are always options. Not always good ones, but there are options and temporary solutions to make it work.
  You can get through this. The distance is temporary. Just keep reminding yourself.
  
  Here's a version of the mantra/prayer I used to get me through before Obi and I closed the distance. I would repeat it over and over until I felt able to function as a regular human. Sometimes faith gives us a strength we can't get from anywhere else... and I know you and God are on good terms. He'll help you. Come on Luce, pray with me now? *Takes your hands*
  
  Holy Father, take me in your hand and guide me,
  soothe my emotions and remind me,
  I am not alone.
  I am not alone
  Lord, ease my loneliness, I am not alone.
  
  Holy Father, Grant me your strength and remind me
  I am not alone. I am not alone,
  Lord, heal my heart, I am not alone.
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