The uncertainty has driven me mad all week. Knowing that the biopsy had been done and he was asked to be seen in the doctors office......the outcome loomed over me like a dark force..one i didn't think I was ready for. All day yesterday I was in a fog. I slept for a long while during the day and woke up with a bad feeling. For you see I was in a relationship last summer...LDR for a few weeks with someone...and though it was a horrible breakup...we remained friends..and then his NOW wife and I became friends online...very weird..I know...but it works.

Anyway...last summer he would have awful stomach pains...and I would encourage him over and over to go to the doctors...but he refused. Enter his wife. She finally convinced him to go.

The news came to me last night. Cancer.

My heart aches for his wife. She is a true gem. She finally found her prince.

I have today off. It's Halloween Parade at my littlest daughters school. Got a couple of errands....going to get a movie for the kids and I for tonight.

My love just called to be sure I am awake....we chatted for a few...and he is off to bed. LOVE him.

I have a long weekend of work ahead of me...got money to make...for I took 5 days off to go see Dan...and now he is coming here.. But I have three bills that NEED to be paid. That's the flaw in waitressing...you don't know how much money you are going to make each day. But for the most part when it is OVER...Money is GREAT!