It’s been a rough couple of days. While fighting to keep myself from falling apart after the visit I made a to do list. I completed every task today. That is my positive. I fought hard to keep myself busy and focus on my SO and our love.
Monday I found out that my ex boyfriend from last year has stage 4 cancer. I was heartbroken. I remain good friends with him and his new bride. He was there for me when my ex husband and I battled and battled…and he was a very important part of me letting go and finding me. To know he has stage 4 cancer my heart breaks. He has 4 daughters. He is 41. His wife is an amazing soul. He just found out he has cancer 3 weeks ago.

Last night after work I received a text asking me if the young girl who had died in a car crash was really our friend’s daughter. That was when I learned they had released her name. It was indeed my friends daughter. 22. Died in a fiery car crash in which the friend who was driving fled the scene and was found 15 hours later. My heart breaks for my friend and the entire family. The girls younger sister is my 11 year olds friend.
Unbelievable.

Tonight my ex SIL called me her “psycho ex sil” on a mutual friends Facebook page. To say it hurt is a major understatement. Words cut. This woman has over and over called me names…even when we were together.

Usually my SO works till 4 am on Wednesday nights. Tonight he was done at 10. When he called me after work he found a babbling mess of a woman. Within minutes he had me calmed down and thinking rational.

I can admit he has me wrapped around his finger.

Life has been extremely hard this week.

But as I tuck my babies in their beds tonight and I hold my right hand over my engagement ring..I feel blessed..and so very thankful to God for what I do have and I will focus on that today.

And each of you. Thank you for just listening to me tonight.