I have loved this man every day of 2010. We started dating Christmas Day 2009. He was the very first person to call me at midnight last year. He will be here by my side as we ring in 2011. He has been here since a week ago yesterday...He leaves first thing tomorrow morning.

My heart is breaking.

I HATE this moment.

We are waiting for the pizza/wings delivery. I can here Dan and my middle child talking in the kitchen. I have learned to share him this visit.

We have done the most ordinary things this time...and it truly is going to hurt like hell to hug him tomorrow morning as he drives back to NH.

The house HAS to sell soon.

He unpacked so much stuff today. It isn't right that he is leaving. He keeps telling me...."the next time I come here I have a feeling it will be for good." God I hope he is right.

HAHAHHA
He just walked in here and handed me my "Jamaican me happy" Wine cooler and said..."Cute guy at the end of the bar sent this to you."

How how how how can I let him go in the morning. His touch, smell, and sound of his voice surround me.