Me again.

I was so emotionally spent earlier. Thank you to everyone that responded, text, and messaged me. It means so much to be able to come here and have people UNDERSTAND.

Another showing is tomorrow. These people are investors that put in an offer without seeing the property. Tomorrow they are actually looking at it to see if they will accept his counter offer.

He and I have not had much time to talk since a week ago and it is odd for us. I mean we talk throughout the day but it is quick and I MISS HIM!

He and I met face to face a year ago Friday. Seems like yesterday, yet seems like years ago.

His name is carved on my heart. Never have I allowed that to happen.

I think that is why I get so nervous. My best friend said something to me today that struck a chord with me.

I told her I felt he was pulling away and acting distant. She said..."Ah..I think it is you trying to make yourself feel better because when you feel like running...it is easier to say the other one is doing it as well."

Because when I bring up my concern to my love...he just says he has NO IDEA where I get my silly ideas.

Good grief. Me. A pile of mushy gushy emotions.

THIS IS NOT ME! I am usually so in control...don't wear my heart on my sleeve and could easily yell NEXT and always there was someone waiting in the wings.

But this is the one. the man. MY MAN. My future. My love.

And my feet are firmly planted.

Someone pull me loose....

then again.

Don't. This is where I need to be.

And so badly want to be.