I went through a very deep bout of depression last week. It was crippling. To those that don't suffer from depression, it is hard to understand just how crippling it can be.

When I go through this, I withdraw. I want to run, escape, and not feel. I overthink, overanalyze, and just try to cut off my own happiness.

Yesterday it lifted. I felt so much better.

Things between SO and I right now are strained. I have come to accept it. He has stress from wanting to sell and he can't and I have my own stress. The one thing I know is that we love each other and we WILL get through it...eventually. I am open and honest and he knows how I feel. He is working 10 hour overnight shifts this week...he is on night 3...so by Wednesday night we can chat for real again.

I am learning to accept things.

It is what it is.