If one doesn't want to read my blog.

Don't.

You can simply unfriend me and you won't see my blogs.

Simple as that.

Life is about how you feel and feeling those emotions. I stuffed down my pain wayyy to long. I now have a voice and I will use it.

If I complain in my blog and stress and worry...that is me letting it out. Years of therapy caused me to see that I was covering up my pain way too much.

In here are my deepest thoughts and feelings.

Happy. Sad. Positive and Negative.

It is me.

I will never EVER pretend to be someone I am not again.

Call me old...call me whatever.

But it is what it is.


Tomorrow is my wedding anniversary. We would have been married 16 years..or I guess I could say we are..as our divorce isn't final. We haven't been together in over two years though.

My heart hurts today because the date that once meant so much is blahhhh.

For you see we married on my Gram's bday.

And she passed away in 2000.

I give more power to a date..this I know.

But to me it symbolizes me and my failure at relationships.

I did receive great news today...I was approved for a program called HEAP..and was awarded 450 for my Gas and Electric bill...PRAISE GOD! I have been hammered hard by those costs. It is based on financial eligibility.