It's 3 am. Why not blog??

Ah. Let's see what has been happening in my life?

Knee. Oh my darn knee. It was very badly hurt...broken in fact. I went in for surgery on May 25th and learned it was in worse shape then expected. A microfracture surgery was done on it along with the other stuff that was planned.

Meaning? I was non weight bearing for 6 weeks. 42 days. NO WEIGHT. Wheelchair bound. Hell. I was in my own personal hell of not being able to do much of ANYTHING. But pop pain meds.....try to eat...endure the pain...all while keeping up with my kids. Dan and I went through a lot of communication breakdowns because I was getting more and more depressed and just stopped talking. When the 6 weeks ended though...I had such high hopes for getting out of wheelchair and returning to work. Then I fell. On the same leg I badly sprained my right foot. It's a long story...but I will make it short. At this point I needed to start to regain strength in knee...but almost impossible with foot being sprained.....That was two weeks ago. Foot is getting better slowly...knee still hurts....well I was reaching for something yesterday and the knee locked up and gave out on me and down I went.

I went to surgeon the other day. I need a knee replacement. But for now there is a temporary fix. I can get injections to beef it up, hopefully be able to return to work....

And walk down the aisle on my wedding day.

Ah yes. August 25th....in 34 days. It has FLOWN by. I have done so much in prep...yet have so much more to do. Just found someone to make my bouquet today and found shoes. Not fancy dream shoes I want...but flats I can wear. They will do. Found the ring the other day....GORGEOUS from an estate sale. We are doing a long distance theme...so many cute ideas either I have came up with , or pinterest has given me. The wedding is in NH...and Daunted Poet is my Best Lady... Best man is his twin brother. There will be appx. 45 people there...then two weeks after that is the reception here. Now that is a total surprise from a dear friend of mine. I do know it's long distance themed. A huge thank you to each of you sending me postcards to tie in with the wedding decorations!!

Guess what? The bridal shower is tomorrow....TODAY!

Dreams do come true. Read back through my diary...see how much I was falling apart.

These moments now.....make it all WORTH IT.

Much love to you all...