Thank you Tanja. I needed to write. I knew I should...and needed to face this page. My blog, my dates, my pics.


As most of you know...my HUSBAND of 4 months is moving back to New Hampshire. After 19 months of ld and 19 months of cd...it's over. It's weird. I go from crying hysterically to knowing this is the right thing to do. I am NUMB BROKEN HURT and yet I am RELIEVED and ready to move on.

Living with an alcoholic is hard. OHHH so hard. TO have the wool pulled over my years and have it slammed in my face when we closed the distance sickens me. I used every excuse possible......and I thought if I loved him enough, he would stop for me.

That's a lie we tell ourselves. I have reached out for help. Already been to the docs and start therapy. MY anorexia has came back full force as it is not something as simple as..."Just eat." My life is out of control therefore I turn to anorexia to control something anything.

OK I am going to stop her as just seeing the pic of he and I to the right is breaking my heart....but I am glad to be writing.....so Tanja.....you are up....

You have 49 hours...

Much love to all.