Physically.

I am an empty shell. I brush my teeth. I shower. I put deodorant on. I go back to bed. I get up to do my duties and then back to bed. I don't eat. I live on water and diet coke.

Mentally.

I am gone. I start therapy on Wednesday. I can't wait to just fall apart in a safe environment.

Kids.

They have seen their Mother go from a strong confident person to someone broken.

I am not wallowing, I am numbing myself...I have to get through this. And I will.

My whole world has fallen apart.