Sending you good thoughts for your trip- hope it will be just what you need!

And I'm very, very sorry to hear about your kids. There has been a lot going on at your placed, and I don't even know the half of it- like Tanja said, once things get more settled for you, they may very well decide to come back to your place.

Breaks into song "Just hold on for one more day!"

We're here for you honey. Try not to let the world get you down. Perhaps the kids living with their dad wont be such a bad thing. I got so much closer to my mum when I didn't live with her anymore... I think you can't really be friends with your kids until they are no-longer under your authority/house rules. There may just be a silver lining.

Enjoy your holiday xx

I broke my mother's heart by moving in with my dad when I was 14. I needed a break. My mom and I were too much alike and I couldn't thrive with her. The grass seemed greener with the thought of being with my dad. And you know what? It was cute for about 6 months, then I hated it again. But my mom and I were rebuilding, so I didn't move back in right away. I stayed away for 2 years before I went back and I know it was hard for her, and I wish I'd never hurt her like that, but I needed it. I don't think at all that your two oldest are feeling the way I felt, because there were entirely different circumstances, but with things up in the air about Dan, maybe they just want a chance to breathe and figure it out for themselves. My dad's relationship with his 2nd wife was hard for me, and I took a lot if it out on him while I was the same age as your kids.

Remember back in the days where the distance was all you could see? You decided to take it a day at a time. It changed your whole outlook. Keep taking it one day at a time. Focus on enjoying the time away from everyone and everything. That's what vacations are for And hey - remember I'm here any time, no matter what you need. I'm a text, a call, a Skype session away. Love you Luce <3