I am now WIDE awake at 5:30 in the morning. The day BEFORE my love is to arrive for the first time. It seems so unbelievable, so much like a dream. We have been counting this time down almost since the day we met.

I find myself in a catch-22. I kept quiet for so long about Vernon and I, and now people think I just up and left Dan and now I am with Vernon.

I have decided that Facebook is the biggest waste of space in the world, the biggest waste of time, and all sorts of relationship breakers. By relationships I mean friendships. I have been supported for the most part by friends that find out. Oh sure I have had one person that I thought was a friend talk shit about me and say I am going to be murdered and I am clueless. Until someone has went through what I have went through....it is so hard for anyone to be able to understand. I don't expect them to. I just would love for people to just say stuff to my face instead of run their mouths behind my back.

Clueless.

I think I need to find a new job. I really do. I no longer enjoy going to work, and the bosses have been my bosses for 23 years. Time for a change of scenery. Taking notes here. yes that is what I need.

Lots of changes coming up.

Am I ready?

OH HELL YES!


I am hungry. I shouldn't be...I ate so much Capt'n Crunch cereal......do you have any idea how awesome that stuff is?? OMMMMG. I love it.

I am running on so much adrenaline right now.

Clothes.


I bought a bunch of new clothes. Can't decide on the shirt though. I found the cutest clothes....but I am trying to match semi to what he is wearing....but I know I won't lol. I hired a photographer to catch the first few moments at the airport. Best 60 bucks I will ever spend. This I Know for sure!

Now I am rambling.

Tanja! Where are you? How's this for a ramble.

Not cool huh? You say shush? Ok I probably should! LOL!

I am excited, happy, and ready.



TOMORROW!