Are you comfy? Are you sitting down, ready to read. Ready to take it all in?

I knew from the moment I met Vernon this was it. I knew it without a shadow of a doubt. It was different this time, there was no doubts....just both feet jumping in and I was ready. I let down all walls before meeting this man and though I was scared shitless....I was willing to do it right this time. To be able to love fully and allow myself to be loved fully.

Ah the airport. I have the greatest video of me 5 minutes before meeting him that my roommate took. I have never laughed so hard watching myself look like a total freak a zoid. I was sooo nervous. I kept saying..."I can't do this...I am going to puke...OMG I can't do this. Breathe breath breathe." But when the time came....I rushed into his arms, he took off his cowboy hat, and I was completely lost with his lips and his arms. I was home. I was where I was meant to be.

Excuse me while I wipe the tears streaming down my face.

Deep breathe.

There is so much to share. I will spare you the details and just cut to the chase. Sex with him was out of this world and it was the most perfect love making I have ever experienced. Walking was a chore the next day, hahahahhaha. But as some say...Schlonging...yup Finally after 3.5 years.....AHHHH!


We spent time sight seeing, cooking, traveling, making love, spending time with kids, making love, holding hands, going out to eat, making love, kissing, wrestling....ALL OF IT.

We knew before he visited we would NOT do long distance. We knew we were meant to be together. I couldn't do long distance again....certainly from Texas to NY.

So. He flew back tonight.....the car he has for me is all packed.....with his lifetime belongings...sitting at his Mom's home....and he is leaving in the middle of the night and driving the 20 hours back here to NY....

To live.

With me.

Quick?
YUP!

Will I be judged?

I no longer care. I am 43 years old and I know what I want.

He will be here about midnight tomorrow. And there will be no distance.

It's taken a long road to get to this point. I have kept everything off facebook and a few of my closest friends know.

I have NEVER been so sure of anything in my life.

Does Dan know? Yes. He knows I am with someone. Tomorrow he is coming to get his final mail as he is moving to NH on Wednesday early morning. The irony in it all is odd. He and I are still friends. He wants the best for me.....and he says he can see it in my eyes.

Life is strange.

But life is GOOD.

I am so very happy....and so ready....forget new chapters.

Baby this is a WHOLE NEW BOOK.