I have a dull headache. Hoping just letting out my thoughts will make it disappear.

Roommate I had a 20 year old girl move in because I needed help making ends meet. She has been here 6 weeks. She is a lazy lazy person. With three cats, a nasty attitude and she drives me nuts. She is not around much...but her cats drive me nuts. Have I mentioned they drive me nuts. I told her one of them has to go...he has serious anger problems...yes the cat...and she said "he is like family"...and asked if she needs to find a new place to live. I pretty much said YES. No amount of monetarial help is worth my sanity. For jimminy crickets sake...I have never met a more negative person.


Kids Most know that my older two moved out over three months ago. Broke my heart...but it was for the best. This weekend they are coming for a visit. Not sure how I feel about that. I feel like I am on trial and they are going to see if they can push my buttons and see just how much I have changed. Teenage years are hard and I will be the first one to admit I can't control them...especially my daughter. When they left I was very depressed because of the whole marriage ending and I was in bed most of the time...for three months.

Dan Divorce was granted yesterday. It was a huge huge huge burden lifted off my shoulder. I have never really poured out my heart about him, and I am not sure if I can. All I can say is that alcoholism destroys more than the person lifting the bottle/glass. The scars are lifetime and I heal daily and refused to be victim. I am just glad it is behind me. I learned a lot from him.....I truly did.

Vernon He is at work....one of the first times we have been parted...besides me going to work. It is very odd to be home without him. He is working at a restaurant here in town....as that is what one of his jobs he did in Texas was. He treats me so good. he knows me and knows my body. He knows my heart and soul. It's crazy how when you let the walls down....


LOVE happens.

True love is hard to come by.....AHHH!

yes we are engaged. My diamond is beautiful and I am a very happy girl. He has made me find the real me again....and regain so much what was lost.

My headache is still there.

I am going to stop for now......