Still getting use to the new job. It will take some time. I am not one to hang out with co workers outside of work, and so many of them do. You know the whole drinking buddies and hanging out. I am the oldest one there and when I leave work, frankly...I leave!! I need to toughen up in general and not wear my heart on my sleeve. A co worker said something last night that hurt my feelings...and well of course the waterworks started. That is one thing I hate about me...I am so damn emotional! I have made a LOT of friends in a short amount of time there and a couple of the girls are stuck up snots whom I think truly are miffed by the fact that a new girl has come in, is good at her job, and people like her. So my boss pulls me into the office and the gm is in there....long story short. He basically said that I don't run food. So now I have to "prove myself" in that way and run a hell of a lot of food tomorrow. I hate carrying the big trays...but no one will say I am not a team player. That's the thing about me...you can critique me all you want, but guess what? I am my own worst critique and I will go above and beyond to prove anyone wrong.

The money is excellent. I have been making at least 100 bucks a shift. That is excellent money. It's just been a lot to learn in a short amount of time...lots of changes. It's nice to have Vernon there too....not that I talk to him much, he is on the other side of the wall...but I know he is there .

Speaking of the man...a week from tomorrow he will be my husband. In every essence of the word. This time it's different, this time is amazing and this time is REAL. We have such a good relationship. He makes me laugh so hard sometimes. He has helped me believe in me.

My knee is doing great, I have lost 30 pounds. 30!! I am so proud of myself....it's been a long journey...but worth it. I have a long ways to go, but little steps at a time are getting me there.

So yes, things are great...for the most part....I need to toughen up the emotions a little (LOT!) and stop allowing others to walk over me. This will be a challenge.