i feel like i can breath

I needed this. Lol whenever i really have a nice conversation with my Nathan its like i been taking short breaths and then when im with him i can breath, like a big breath of air. I can't tell you how much i needed to talk to him. Maybe im weak? I need him to much, lol i go a little crazy if its been more than a few days without a real conversation. I try to distance myself so im not thinking about him, but thats impossible he's always on my mind, so its a struggle and then i just upset myself, and i get moody and its bad lol im a horrible emotional wreck then. Then I get to talk to him and get my fill and im ready to do it all over again.

He makes me feel guilty tho.... cause when he be sweet to me, i feel guilty for feeling neglected... but i love him always, and i can't help it... Lol. But anyways tonight was nice, although we didn't talk much about our days or what were doing, it was about us and our relationship and was just so sweet. I truly am a lucky girl, and half the time I don't deserve him.

I love you Nathan!

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Tara_Lynn commented

March 31, 2011, 01:48 PM

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It's always great to get to talk to your love! It's a time when you actually don't have to wonder what your SO is doing. What a nice change of pace! Haha. I look forward to my one hour a week when Alex and I get to talk. I can just block out other things a focus on him.

Don't let your SO make you feel guilty though! Explain that you need to talk to him and he should be considerate of that. At the same time make sure you are realistic about how much ya'll can talk and don't be smothering.

Lastly, never think you don't deserve him. I'm sure he never thinks you don't.

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